Month: May 2006

  • Need Some Advice!

    OK, so I just re-read my rant from last night, and it struck me as pretty self-important and self-pitying.  My first impulse was to just delete it.  But someone had already commented.  And, then I started thinking about what the heck you’re supposed to use a blog for and whether going back and editing what were your honest thoughts at that moment was, well, quite kosher.  Even if they portray you in a less than flattering light.  I post relatively seldom, and I read only my friends’ blogs, so I really don’t know what the common wisdom is.  Or is the term “common wisdom” an oxymoron in itself?

    So fellow bloggers (most of whom post a whole helluva lot more than I do), what are your thoughts on going back to delete or alter posts about which you have second thoughts (for whatever reason)?

  • But I love my new computer.

  • Life is getting ridiculous again. What do you do when there truly is NO ONE ELSE who can do what you do? And it’s the end of the month with at least three multi-million dollar deals that have to close by Friday? And you’re preparing court documents to file a temporary restraining order against . . well . . against someone, with a filing deadline of that same Friday? You work until 11:30 one night, get in at 7:00 the following morning, work until 11:00 that night, and plan on working late again on the Friday before a holiday weekend. Sigh. And you wonder seriously if you’re going to have to work over the weekend to meet another customer’s deadline on deal worth more than $50 million a year for the next 6 years. Double freaking sigh. So much for my resolution to cut back on my hours.

    Bitch, moan, bitch, moan. I’m doing it to myself, damnit. I know it, but I can’t bring myself to NOT do it. The world woudn’t end, would it? OK, so the deals might not (probably would not) close, the company wouldn’t make its numbers, and the employees wouldn’t get any end of quarter bonuses. But, that’s not the end of life as we know it, is it? Fucking sense of responsiblity (or whatever). I really hate myself sometimes, or at least that part of myself that drives me like this.

  • Been playing with my new computer and its built-in camera, along with trying to figure out how to port everything into a Mac from a PC. Got an iMac 20″ and it’s simply beautiful. It’s sitting on my kitchen table right now, until I rearrange the house – gotta love having wireless throughout the house.

    Went to a great housewarming party Saturday night with MiniCooperChic and assorted other friends. Realized I’m a louse when I suddenly remembered she had Lasik the day before and I had totally forgotten she had it scheduled. Too focused on me – spent both days of the weekend (except Saturday night) at a bead show in Grapevine, spending way too much money. Meant to email her today to ask how things were going and got so busy I forgot (as is far too usual). Gotta pull my head out of my ass and let my friends know how much I appreciate them and think of them (even if I don’t get around to telling them often enough). You reading this MiniCooperChic? I’m a louse, but I love you!!

    Time for bed. Signing off.



  • You Are Somewhat Machiavellian




    You’re not going to mow over everyone to get ahead…
    But you’re also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
    You understand how the world works, even when it’s an ugly place.
    You just don’t get ugly yourself – unless you have to!

  • Moi?



    Your Quirk Factor: 62%




    You’re so quirky, it’s hard for you to tell the difference between quirky and normal.
    No doubt about it, there’s little about you that’s “normal” or “average.”

  • I’m feeling philosophical.  And vaguely guilty.  I haven’t
    check my work email since Friday night.  That’s normal behavior,
    right?  Since when did not working on the weekend make me feel
    vaguely guilty?  Reading SouthernRector’s site has made me
    remember all the moving on I’ve done in my life – and there’s been an
    whole hell of a lot of it.  I spent years living for the future,
    and I’ve spent years living for the now – and sometimes I feel a lack
    of something inherent in striving for goals having to do with that
    future state.  But, damnit, I worked so hard to get to this
    now!!!  Sigh.  I don’t know the answers – hell, I don’t even
    know the questions.  And I feel like I really should check my work
    email.  Blech.

    All that maundering done, I’ve had a really lovely, lazy weekend. 
    Went to a malonga (tango party?) with MiniCooperChic Friday night,
    which was lots of fun.  She’s so totally hooked on tango!  I
    enjoyed the dancing and enjoyed watching even more.  I’ll have to
    go, wearing proper shoes this time, and try dancing again.  There
    were some interesting characters there, and that’s saying something
    considering the characters I’m used to!  Did a whole lot of
    nothing on Saturday, and ditto today (except laundry).  Now, I
    need to hop in the shower and get ready to go out to the Dallas Wine
    & Food Festival.  We’re going to a class called Wine for
    Everyday People.  Two of my favorite subjects!